Is this OCD or is it just all in my head?

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Is this OCD or is it just all in my head?a couple of months ago, i was diagnosed with Anxiety after going to the ER for an anxiety attack. Since then, its just been getting worse. I feel really really depressed. I'll stay in my room, and do nothing all day. i feel sad, and i've lost interest in doing stuff i love to do like hanging out with friends and driving, and stuff. I've lost my appetite. in the past 3 months, i've lost about 12 pounds. I'll cry for no reason. I've been getting these horrible thoughts. And I've recently discovered that these thoughts make me have the attacks. They're thoughts like "what if I kill myself" or "what if i go crazy or insane and kill everyone, or i'll get sent to an insane asylum" or "what if i don't go to heaven when i die" or "what if i die in my sleep". Its those stupid "What if" thoughts. I dont' want to get them, but i still do. I'll picture myself hanging somewhere while thinking "what if i hang myself" and I get really anxious or scared or ill have an anxiety or panic attack. I HATE these thoughts, cuz it doesn't matter where i am, i'll still get them. I could be having a good time, and i'll get a horrible thought, and i'll just get really quiet and think about it for a LONG time. I feel like its ruining my life!!!! I think i'm going crazy most of the time. My mom thinks its all in my head. I mean, what? does she think i really want to have these thoughts??? Could this be OCD? Or is it just the anxiety? I have a family history of Anxiety and depression. I have prescribed Xanax, but i hardly take them, unless i'm having an attack or something cuz they put me to sleep. I always used to think that OCD meant doing stuff over alot, like repeating stuff. The only thing i do like that, is check my pulse. WHen i first started getting the anxiety and attacks, i would think i was dying, and i would constantly check my pulse like on my neck or wrist. I do it all the time if i get anxious and stuff. that's the only thing like that that i do.
I'm really scared. I feel like i can't control my thoughts and that scares me so much. I'm mostly scared to be put in a mental hospital for it!
BTW, i'm only 14, and i don't know what to do. i just want to find out what it is that i have so i can get medicine or whatever to fix it. I miss the old me. The "normal" me. I hate this.

Also, i have a really hard time falling asleep. I get in bed at like 10 or 11, and i won't fall asleep till 2 or 3. Sometimes i take my xanax to help me sleeep. I always get kinda anxious and panic-y before i go to sleep.

SO is this like OCD or what?

Alice
wow i have some of the same problems except for the anxiety attacks. yeah it sounds like OCD to me, don't be scared or anything, there are ways to get control of the thoughts, i get those all the time and i hate it, but maybe u should see a psychologist or something, they could probably help u get control of the thougts and stuff.

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