If karma is real will the mexican neighbors experience the same psychological terror that I feel?There are many latinos around where I live. There are mexicans living near where I am currently living now. This is not a bad neighborhood but unfortunately I think they have never lived in a decent neighborhood before and was probably from the projects or one of those not very safe places and they bought the mentality from their past along with them. When they first arrive here in this neighborhood it seem they felt that they need to intimidate people such as drinking or smoking in front of their home without their shirt on and revealing their tattoos. Harassing women and young girls such as preteens as they pass by the street and if it was a young boy or a teenage boy these guys would on purposely whistle at the boy or stare at the boys butt. It is like prison on this street no one dares to speak against them or tell the police knowing that they won't be arrested without breaking any law and also they might retaliate the person who call the cops. One of the mexican guy around age 25 he would walk back and forth on the block like as if he is patrolling.
The feeling of anger, intimidation is not the main problem. It is the fear they inflict. I have heart problems and when they play loud music with booming sounds it nearly cause me heart attack. The problem is they play music like 1 am in the morning. Sometimes they would turn down the volume and minutes later when you starts to feel calm down they would turn on the music really loud again and it makes you wonder if they are doing it on purpose. My heart beats hard when hearing it then I feel dehydrated, panic and anxiety attacks occurs. It's like being in a surreal psychological horror movie. Not to mention some of the lyrics are really disgusting and unbearable as much as the language they use. When you go to school or go out side they will follow you and from few feet behind you they will laugh and shout things in spanish like "how much money for an hour" or "we smell you from here" and this fears take over your body and your legs feels weak and almost shaking as you walk. If you have brother or a guy friend walking with you they will shout things like "coward" "gay", "no balls means no girlfriend" these are the lesser rude things they say there's more.
I don't know what kind of life lesson I am getting from this other than to know how horrible this experience is and to never do it to another human being and also to never let my children to be this way when (if) I became a parent one day. Maybe higher powers are testing my limits. I am tempted to end my own life sometimes but I just tell myself what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger. I sometimes wonder if they can understand how I feel? Or one day they might experience that I am experiencing and maybe gain some empathy? If there is karma dept that me, my family and anyone around this environment have owed I hope it ends here and that these people will learn their lesson without experiencing this same horror. Because it is so terrible that I don't want anyone else to experience not even them.
Reach
i'll protect you baby
Jess4rsake
Yes. There is karma. If they do not stop that behavior in their own community, it will continue and they will be the only people left there because everyone else, regardless of nationality, race or gender who does not like that sort of behavior will move away from them and they will be forced to change or they will destroy themselves and their offspring.
NeoPlasmMuseum
That's not what Karma is.
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